Stewin'

I did a lot of thinking today. The problem with me and thinking, is it's a lot like trying to run on a big round ball. I get running one way, look back and can't see the landscape. So I backtrack and end up going too far back and I forget the point I left off at. So I launch again forward, then back. And so on. Honestly.

I had a whole blog laid out in my head tonight after I left the girls-night movie. Where it's gone I can't say, but I hope it comes back soon, it was a good one.

A friend said something to me today, and I'll paraphrase here. Basically that I should make a decision on my own instead of asking everyone else.

I'm not sure I know how to do that. I like to research my decisions. And I tend to get blinded by emotions and feelings. So there have been decisions in my life that have not been sound. So I research. I ask my friends what they think.

But I don't always take their opinions as my own. That's the major difference. I do think for myself (see the ball rolling paragraph above). But I know a lot about myself. And I know that it is really hard for me to see the big picture from where I stand. So by asking friends, a couple in particular, I am virtually guaranteed another vantage point.

So I scramble over to their viewpoint for a moment, see my life at a distance and then return to my spot. Usually I'm better equipped to make a decision at that point.