I feel like I should be more than I am. I feel that I'm missing the boat and I can't find the sea.

Each evening - and sometimes each morning - I read a bevy of blogs that are written by people way more... together... than I am. They have Things To Say and Words of Wisdom. They have the coveted Focus and the elusive Goal.

I do not.

I feel a desire to make busy work so that I don't have to worry about it all.

I think I'm bored with myself.