Hmmmm... Whatever.... Hmmmmm

Is this what a funk is like? I can't remember. I wish I could identify the emotions in my head right now. I know I said I wouldn't blog about the BF, but could we just be together right now? That would solve the majority of my/our problems.

By the time I got home today, I had the stress toothache and everything.

I must have the strangest body. I get two toothaches, one top, one bottom... and only if I am stressed. I have yet to catch myself clenching my teeth or doing anything to make my teeth hurt. But if I'm stressed... there it is. I actually rushed to the dentist once because I couldn't stand the pain anymore... and there's no cavity there. So it's some of Katie's American-Made Excedrin, or a Tylenol with Codeine for me!

I opted for a Codiene.

And I had a beer.

Ok.

Two.

I all better now.

Except that rather than nervous energy that makes me pace my house, make too much dinner, and do extra loads of laundry. I am fighting the desire to crawl under my covers with a third beer and make all the bad thoughts go away.

Maybe tequila.

No, it's Friday tomorrow. The week is almost over, I can make it.

Work has been busy, this is a good thing. It keeps me pretty much occupied for the whole day. In fact, today I didn't take a lunch, so I left a bit early. Still not a good choice because it gave me more time to pace.

The worst.. the absolute worst... is that I can't pinpoint the source of my stress. Too many things are coming at me. Long distance relationship, numbers down at work, normal single mom things, trying to plan without knowing the plan, pending vacations, articles that are screaming to be written.....

I need a massage. I need to get drunk. I need (another) holiday! I need (more) sex.

Ok, that one crossed a line.

My bad.

I need to go watch CSI and forget that I'm stressed.